How can a girl cope with the trauma of unloving parents who practically abandoned her at the age of eight? Or with her strict grandmother who is trying to convince her that she doesn’t need her parents? These questions have been chasing Anne for her entire life. At the age of 26, she recalls every detail from her childhood, fears it as she did when she was little. Anne can still hear the screaming of her mother confronting her drunk father, she can feel the touch of her uncle sliding his hand over her leg. She’s trying to satisfy her grandmother’s desires and find her way back to her mother despite the numerous rejections in the past. But with the painful, unexpected death of the only person who has never hurt her, she finds herself heading back home – to the same small village and the same people she was trying so hard to escape from. Despite its intense grief, this novel is a poetic and lively attempt to deal with one’s own destructive drive. It aims to plant the seed of belief in the possibility of transformation.

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